Thats It.

That’s It. Im done with life.

since it is obvious that no one loves and/or cares bout me I am leaving existence

It was good for a while but then everyone left me o_o


~Spottedcloud/UniSpace/Grace out

[Final Note]

Oh look…. This is my 200th post….
How amazing that I’ve made it to far… too bad there’s nothing left for me…

well then….

Out for the absolute 100% sure time
~Spottedcloud/UniSpace/Cra-Cray Kitty/Rebecca Grace out


28 thoughts on “Thats It.


    DO NOT DIE!!

      1. I understand how that feels: when you still want to be around but you don’t want the responsibilites of having a blog. Trust me: that’s how I feel with life most days.

  2. Do you even know how many times I thought that this past month?! Even today, as I was laying in bed exhausted after the previous day’s events (was taken by ambulance to the hospital during school for possible stroke, seizure, the doctors don’t know) I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. But I’m still here. It’s been the worst time of my life lately. The amount of times I thought about giving up is innumerable. Don’t do it. I’m still here. I didn’t give up. Therefore you can’t either. And to quote Graystripe “Dying is for old people.” There you have it. Unless you’re secretly hiding that you’re a 93 year old lady you don’t have a good reason to die.

  3. No… Don’t try… The bible says that thou who put death on their own shoulders will not have eternal life and will go to Hell. Your life as it Is istons better than the one you are walking in to! There actually are people who care about you.

      1. So I’ve had the past two days off because of parent teacher conference’s, right? Well mine was today while I was at my dads. So my dad goes into my room to talk, and closes the door, hopping to get some privacy with me. [Keep in mind Kathy normally gets pissed at me when I do the exact same thing]. Dad’s house is really big and has an awkward layout, and through all the times I’ve changed rooms, after about 6 year my room ended up next to the laundry room. I don’t have a single clue on how Kathy ended up where she did, but I’m guessing her original intentions where to come up and do laundry.HOWEVER. She overhears me and dad and AFTER ALL SINCE SHE IS THE QUEEN OF THE HOUSE AND HAS TO KNOW EVERYTHING, SHE PATIENTLY WAITS BY THE DOOR, LISTENING TO OUR EVERY WORD. So, y’all know I absolutely fucking suck at math, right? Well, we where on that topic when she overheard so news that: 1)I had gone from Math 7 Honors to normal Math 7, 2)I had failed my previous math quiz (from the 7 Honors, we haven’t had another test yet), and 3) I had a project but had only turned in some of my work. Before I can open my mouth to explain ANYTHING AT ALL, she slams open the door and practically rages about my existence. [Keep in mind that all the time I’ve known her, she has claimed that she was a perfect child and so is Mason but only because she is doing an exelent job of raising him.] Every flaw you could possibly point out about me, any flaw in my life, ANY FUCKING FLAW THAT I HAVE INHERITED BY SIMPLY BEING HUMAN, ANY MOTHERFUCKING FLAW THAT I SHARE WITH HER!!!!!! SHE COMPLETLY SCREAMS AT ME ABOUT. Some of them I could change, some of them I can’t. But through the entire thing, not one kind word is said about anyone.So what do you expect my caring father to do? Tell her to stop? Say “it’s alright, no one’s perfect”?[oh whoops exept Kathy, I forgot Kathy was perfect T_T]


        He sits there and doesn’t do a Goddam thing about any of it.

        That’s when I realize: if he truley cared about me, he would have done something about it
        The last person I look to for love, gone.

      2. Next time you do something like this, I will literally come to VA from AZ and give you a talk.

        A rather heavy-worded talk.

        On how you should not scare people with suicide notes, no matter HOW cruddy your day was.

  4. Spottedcloud, I’m glad to see your ok, I’m new to your blog, but I think that I speak for all of us when I say, we’ll be here for you, always. God Bless 🙂

    1. Hate to welcome you on such a bad note…. but hi. As you can tell I live a cruddy life with a step dad that doesn’t care about me [however would do anything in the world for his bratty excuse of a daughter], a mom that hardly has time for me, a step mom that would have been happier if I died, and a dad [the only person that HAS TIME FOR ME AND ACTUALLY FUCKING CARES ABOUT ME] that can’t stand up to her.

  5. I’m sorry for the pain your going through, I know it has to be hard, I just ask you one thing, don’t take any drastic action. It’s best not to make any decisions in the spur of the moment. I know what I’m about to say may sound crazy, but eat a bite of chocolate, or some candy, It always made me feel better. You are special, there is no one else out there that is exactly like you, Things will get better, it may not seem like it at the time, but they will. May God Bless you.

  6. Here is a good quote, I’m not sure who said it but here it is

    “Keep climbing the ladders of your dreams, even if doubt keeps pulling you down.”

    You’ll be ok, tomorrow is a new day,

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